You were so careful when you built the wall between us. You thought you were so smart.
Somehow, you kept my attention by lying to me and throwing scraps my way. Just when I thought you were letting me in, you’d slam the door in my face.
Frustration and anger have built up in me now and I’ve become so bitter. I don’t like this person that’s evolved and yet, I can’t live without her.
Look at me now, blaming you when you are only partially to blame. It’s been a world of hurts that created me, though I’ve tried to stay the same.
The levee has broke around this heart of mine and only bitterness courses through.
The mind is an ocean
a vast enigmatic arena where thought and wisdom collide
Delve in too deep and you will drown in introspection
Be submerged by your own idiosyncrasies
and inadvertently discover virtuous minions flourishing, celebrating and persisting
Brave are those who seek discernment and clarity
For wisdom like a rare jewel
dazzles and entices those who seek it
Meticulously knowledge is pursued from the depths of the subconscious sea
to the infinite undiscovered universe.
As clouds float by a breeze caresses
Sleepy leaves begin to dance
The mountains refreshed by rain, glisten like jewels
Birds are chattering with excitement
As the sun bursts through to greet the earth.
I am an escape artist
I escape from the chaos
To the silence of my mind
And angels rule
I am free
The sorrows of world
Are far away
And rainbows appear
Without the rain
Fill my brain
And then my canvas
I am the master
Of my own design
Armed with my brush
I am an escape artist
To live again and never cry
To seek the good and not ask why
To trust a stranger and close your eyes
Believe in dreams and no goodbyes
To venture out courageously
To plant a seed and grow a tree
To surrender all so flawlessly
And give your love unselfishly
To be satisfied with what you’ve done
And all the things you’ve overcome
To stare painful memories in the face
And walk away with poise and grace
To die to self is not the end
Because to die to self
Is to live again
Everyone has struggles from time to time and we need to be willing to work and live within our means. But do not ever feel that you cannot ask God for financial help. If your heart is in the right place, and you are willing to trust God, you will be blessed. It will not be a magical appearance of wealth, in fact, it will depend on the strength of your faith, patience and your willingness to work hard. Following Gods plan for you is key, and this can be achieved through prayer and scripture.
I wrote this prayer when my children were young and we were struggling financially, and I continue to pray it today. Now, I am sharing it with you.
Lord Jesus your love is so great, so wonderful. You truly are an awesome God! I thank you for blessing my family so abundantly. Praise you Lord. Guide me and help me to manage my finances so that money worries do not overcome me.
I need only ask and you answer, speak your name and all is well. Amen.